Simply Be Honest

These past few weeks I’ve felt lost like I said in my last blog post. When thinking about who I wanted to be, and what I wanted other’s to see me as I wrote down a few things. I want to be honest, be thankful, be joyful, be kind, be accepting, and most importantly be myself. Each week I am trying to focus on one thing specifically. This week was being honest with myself and others.

One of the hardest things you can do is be honest with yourself. I’m talking about being brutally honest and really digging down deep. It was almost as if I was tearing myself down to build a better me. This was really hard for me. The reason this post is so late is because I couldn’t quite get through it without feeling emotionally drained. When I finally did get through all of it though, it felt refreshing. I’m not trying to be all stereotypical or anything, but being honest with yourself is one of the most rewarding things you can do for yourself.

                When you detach yourself and look at what you found you’ll be surprised. Most of the stuff I looked at I’m sure people can find out by talking to me for a good thirty-forty minutes, for example, practicality. I’m sure anyone will tell you after talking with me I am pretty blunt. I don’t really like sneaking around the corners, except when trying to get something I want from my parentals. I enjoy saying it like it is. One of the more surprising things I learned was that I have a horrible fear of failure. I’m sure many people are in the same boat as me. College has probably caused this fear to grow even more. The huge tests, the pressure to keep my grades up, and trying to make new friends all of these things compiled make the best college experience. I am terrified that I am going to fail horribly at one of these things, and will have wasted the best years of my life. Now that I have been honest with myself about this fear, I’ve been able to combat it.

                Another big part of honesty is being truthful with others, and yes there is a difference between rudeness and honesty. Being rude is when you say things uncalled for, like telling your friends their hairstyle is ugly, when nobody asked you for your opinion. Honesty is telling your friends and the people around you the truth when they ask and when the situation could be hurtful to them or someone else. If someone asks you a question tell them the truth. You can say it the nicest way possible, but don’t tell them a lie. That is just hurting them, and later on will hurt you because when someone finally does tell them the truth they’re going to be hurt that you didn’t tell them and your friendship will end up suffering from it. Similar to how someone will be hurt if you kept a secret that was harmful to them or someone else.

                These next few years are bound to be difficult. I don’t want to float through them either. I want to experience and enjoy what is coming. I want to make friends for a lifetime and network and graduate, so my advice to you is not only to be honest but to simply be.

                                                                XOXO,

                                                                     Darby